I did the IGR treatment on my back in December. Continued to be uncomfortble for months. Subsided and started back up in march-ish.
Dealing with that and my lovely weight gain. Joy of stretch pants! I started the nasty chemotherapy. The second one made me think of quiting. Paul had to take me to the hospital after every treatment. The third chemo, I pushed myself. I knew I needed to just keep trying. Looking back with regret was not an option. I was already so weak and tired. The bed was my only friend. My medication list was getting bigger. Steroids galore!
After the second treatment, my adorable husband got me a buzzer and we did the head shave. I couldn't look at my hair fall out anymore. It was making me sad. I have video...I will post it.
And then it happened again....my pains got worse. I slept way too much and felt like the chemo was destroying me. My scan showed stabilization. But, not in the liver. My back tumors exploded (not literally) with pain again. More lydocaine patches. The best is I can never sleep. I wake up with these sticky patches stuck in the strangest places. Once one crept up to my ear, stuck to my shirt! I had no ides what it was. Felt like a slimy slug, Gross!
That funny Gut feeling floated around me until I asked for more testing. My body didn't feel right. I don't think I blogged about this. It's somewhat new. Tumors have been camped out in my lungs and liver. Add a few blood clots. I had a lovely scare from being on blood thinners that gave me the brain hemorrhage. Back in the hospital! They put in a filter to collect the clots. That was super uncomfortable. No sedation. A metal piece being pushed down into your body. I cringe at the trauma and tears! The tumor in my lung has a little blood clot buddy too.
A few weeks later I had a liver biopsy done to determine if the large tumor in my liver was cancer or just something trying to scare me. I begged for a local and to be knocked out. I can't handle these little surgeries. I need an IV pole and some medication love. Not a painful procedure, I am a big baby sometimes. Oh wait, maybe I am like everyone else and can't stand being poked all the time. My body, my rules. 11 years of this crap, I get a say!
It came back as the same spindle cell sarcoma. I decided (and everyone else. I feel like I don't get a say anymore) to do a Hepatic Embolization.
Embolization for Liver Cancer
The hepatic artery delivers oxygen-rich blood from the heart to the liver. Tumors need the oxygen and nutrients supplied by blood to grow. Embolization stops blood from flowing to the tumor by injecting substances that plug the hepatic artery. Meanwhile, the healthy liver cells continue to get oxygen and nutrients from the portal vein, which brings blood to the liver from the intestines. In most cases, the procedure only stops the blood flow temporarily, but it can sometimes block the hepatic artery permanently.
Like ablation, embolization is a good option for certain tumors that cannot be removed by surgery, especially if the cancer has not spread to other parts of the body.
- Hepatic artery embolization - The doctor threads a catheter (thin, flexible tube) into an artery in the inner thigh and up into the hepatic artery. When the catheter reaches the liver, the doctor injects small particles to plug the artery.
I am now spending another month back and forth to Docs. Trying to determine a plan. No more shots! NO more medicine! No more stupid clinical trials that don't help me.
I want this tumor out of my liver. I will take weeks of healing and pain. I have already endured so much. Fartman....what did you do to your liver. HELP ME figure this out. I need opinions.
As the Chemotherapy was coming to an end (my choice), Paul (did everything) and I moved back into our beautiful home we renovated. A whole year! I can't stand the look of boxes. I don't even have energy to open them!
I hope everyone is doing well.....good...fantastic. If you have had and still deal with the crummy hard days. Just push along. One hour may be bright. I think that's all I need for now. Just an hour or two of no exhaustion. That's when my depression, anxiety and sadness disappear. Then the tears start to flow all over again. I am really feeling better as I detox this chemo out. I am also trying to let more people into my life. I push and ignore. I get self conscious and scared. I learned that we all have something going on. I am over talking about it!
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I couldn't of gone through any of this without Paul, my love. Take care of that TOE!