tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post8137758252317264251..comments2023-07-08T08:57:24.573-07:00Comments on Michelle's Blog: one very long yearMichellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02992829768053983637noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post-20575699118906663432012-06-18T18:33:20.847-07:002012-06-18T18:33:20.847-07:00Michele, I am so glad to see your post. We miss y...Michele, I am so glad to see your post. We miss you and love you deeply. We think of you often. You are so strong and inspirational to all of us. We wish you all the best. Next year, I expect you to be riding along side me at Cycle For Survival!!Frank Marcovitznoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post-17600232284961942882012-06-15T08:40:02.896-07:002012-06-15T08:40:02.896-07:00Sending love and prayers for healing and peace!Sending love and prayers for healing and peace!Kristen from OKnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post-61912460609738912962012-06-11T20:08:15.761-07:002012-06-11T20:08:15.761-07:00so glad you posted, I've been looking for you....so glad you posted, I've been looking for you. Prayers for your healing...Sjnhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01248247475325728054noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post-48915599918036477342012-06-09T11:33:06.541-07:002012-06-09T11:33:06.541-07:00(Continued from previous post. Sorry for being so ...(Continued from previous post. Sorry for being so long-winded!)<br /><br />You asked my opinion about what you should do. I can tell you that the two liver surgeries have helped me, and I probably wouldn't be alive today without them. I try to understand and take my doctors' advice, but I think there might be treatments they offer when I will say, "No thank you, let's not do that." But really, I should be asking for <i>your</i> advice, about medical things <i>and</i> spiritual things, because even though you are so much younger, you have greater experience with all this stuff. <br /><br />Still what I would say is, remember the example of Jesus in His suffering. He felt alone, but He was not alone. God healed Him, and restored him, and raised Him up, and He will raise us up, and restore us, and heal us, too. <br /><br />In the meantime while we are still here in this life, although we are cleansed of sin, all of us still will suffer. How is that for noticing the obvious!?!? Some suffer more than others as you know too well. Some people say the reason some suffer more than others is that they have more strength to bear the suffering. (Right now, I bet you are thinking, "In that case, I would like to have a little less strength, thank you very much!")<br /><br />But we don't suffer alone because God has given us love. <br /><br />So here's the best advice I can come up with, which you probably already know is true:<br /><br />You should trust in the love that God has given you, which means you should trust your husband to help you figure things out. You probably have tried to spare him by not burdening him with everything that you are feeling emotionally and physically. But you should not worry about that now. <br /><br />Talk with Paul about all your hopes and fears, every single one. Do not hold back anything that you feel like you need to say. Tell him what you think you want and tell him what you are confused about. Explain to him as best you can about how you feel, but don't worry if there are things that you can't find the right words to explain. <i>Trust him to understand the things you can't explain.</i> If you can't figure out what to do, let Paul figure things out for you. That's one of the things that husbands and wives are for--to do the things that need to be done when we cannot do them for ourselves. So if you aren't able to decide what to do, let Paul decide what is best. Needless to say, things might be confusing and difficult for him, and he won't ever feel sure about things, but tell him you trust him because you know he loves you. Yes, that is a difficult burden for love to bear, but it's a burden that love can bear. And remember that you are <i>not</i> alone in your suffering.The Astonishing FartManhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01979814835615698427noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post-23152197810810497082012-06-09T11:27:35.546-07:002012-06-09T11:27:35.546-07:00My darling child (I can call you that because you ...My darling child (I can call you that because you are younger than my own daughter), how much you have suffered!<br /><br />I know some about suffering because I've had three big surgeries and chemo, which extended my life but have left me with some permanent side-effects. I know from experience how hard it is to keep your spirit from slipping into a black hole when you are physically worn down and in pain. Yet nothing I've gone through comes anywhere close to all you have endured.<br /><br />A few weeks after my first liver surgery when the chemo was making me feel weak and putrid, when the peripheral neuropathy from the oxalyplatin was first starting to make my hands and feet burn on fire, and when the fluid collecting around my liver and the adhesions on my bowels felt like a knife in my side, I thought about Jesus on the Cross with nails in His hands and feet and a wound in His side, and I wondered, "Did He suffer this much? Did he suffer this long?" It was probably a bad sin for me to compare my own suffering to what Jesus endured on the Cross. But that is honestly exactly what I thought about. I also remembered that in His suffering, Jesus cried out, "God, why have you abandoned me?" And just the same way, I thought, "Am I left all alone in my suffering? Has God forsaken me? Am I being punished for my sins." But then I remembered that the Bible says that when Jesus died for us, He took all our sins upon himself. He felt everything that we feel. I think that is why He wondered if God had abandoned Him, because He was experiencing the worst of every human suffering, including the worst thing, which is to feel like you are suffering and all alone. And when you are physically weak and in pain, it is very easy, too easy, to slip into that lonely black hole where you can feel like misery is your only companion.<br /><br />The Bible says that Jesus took away our sins and that He cleanses us of every new sin, yet you know all too well that He did certainly not take away our suffering. So it seems like we are left here, for now, sinless and suffering. Although we are sinless and suffering, we are <i>not</i> alone. God has given us love as a consolation for our suffering: His Love and the love of those who love us. I am not a very good Christian, but I do believe that.<br /><br />(continued in next comment)The Astonishing FartManhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01979814835615698427noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post-82178661286257497792012-06-07T15:25:49.116-07:002012-06-07T15:25:49.116-07:00I am so happy happy happy you have given us a new ...I am so happy happy happy you have given us a new post! Right this minute I'm at M.D. Anderson Hospital about to get myself scanned. Hopefully I'll get a clean scan! I'm writing this on my iPhone which is not very handy, so tomorrow afternoon when I'm finished with the doctors, I will write you a better reply. Right now I'm just happy happy happy to hear from you.The Astonishing FartManhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01979814835615698427noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post-19484761899633612352012-06-06T19:04:33.189-07:002012-06-06T19:04:33.189-07:00I'm so glad you blogged again! I know everyon...I'm so glad you blogged again! I know everyone who reads it will be glad to know you are still "you" and pushing ahead. You are an inspiration Michelle, to more people than you probably know. xxoo, becsAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4409756465500155346.post-61476495528650281632012-06-06T12:46:07.159-07:002012-06-06T12:46:07.159-07:00thanks for the update! sending good vibes your way...thanks for the update! sending good vibes your way. you are in our hearts & prayers....Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com