Saturday, June 26, 2010

Paul said it perfectly, "You are upset because you have lived a normal life since February"

I took one look at the hospital gown, the port in my arm and started balling my eyes out.
Over & over in my head I kept thinking, I don't want to be here. I don't want bad news, I don't want my life to change again....I don't want to add another page to my Hospital journey scrapbook. I have a weekend + 2 days to go.

I use to find it funny that I new every hallway, every floor of the hospitals. I know which floors have the hot chocolate machines! One time we were waiting to see Dr Maki and the machine was broken. People were standing around holding empty coffee cups. I said," Hey, let's take the elevator up to 8 and get it! I know they have a mocha latte's too!" I crowded in an elevator with a few people and we rode it up to coffee heaven.

I am taking a very deep breathe and look forward to a beautiful weekend.

Hugs, love and many smooches!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Praying for great results Tuesday!
Love ya,
Jess

Eileen said...

Love your site! My daughter, Beth, is 28 and has had angiosarcoma for 2 years. Like you, she is trying to avoid an all out chemo war. I noticed that you love water and salt baths. So does Beth. You HAVE to try Himalayan pink salt for baths.We put in essential oils too. It is the best!! A bit pricey, but for those special detox occasions...=)