Sarcoma Drugs

Happy Valentines Day 2011

It was a beautiful day today. The weather was just perfect. I would of liked it about 30 degrees warmer...but I will take 53. Paul and I had a great evening. A random call to one of our favorite restaurants at 4pm landed us a table a 5pm.  We then came home to a buffet of chocolate covered buffet that I set up in the living room! Watched a movie and we are heading to bed early. A perfect evening! I am married to the most loving man. When he tells me that I am beautiful...I know he means it. 

This is a little note, question to my bloggers. Has anyone heard of RIDAFOROLIMUS ????

I did a little research about it. I would love to get feedback from anyone. I am going to talk to my oncologist tomorrow about it. I am hoping to start something soon. I can't wait for another tumor, sarcoma attack. I have been through so much. My poor body and mind, I totally exausted.  I am actually excited to see the Dr's tomorrow.  Strange even for me. 

On top of that...I have confusion in my support circle. It kills me to push people away. I just don't have the energy to make others feel good about decisions they have made. Or chase them looking for love. It's getting ridiculous! You are either by my side or you're not. It's that simple. Honesty is easy and respected. 

My mother gave me great advice today that I am going to follow through on. 

Have a wonderful week. 

Love Love Love 

Home

I'm home from the hospital.
Surgery went really good. They removed the tumor in my cheek and neck. Doc also took out a few other lumps and fifteen lymph nodes in my neck.
I have a ton of stitches in my mouth. I'm on my second day of mashed potatoes. I'm so swollen and bruised I can't chew anything.

I am heading back to bed. I'll blog more when I'm feeling better.

Moving forward.

Xoxo Thanks for checking up on me.

Squirrel Cheeks

Swimming in Mexcian waters yesterday :)
Pre-op tomorrow :)
Surgery Friday :(

I did have a great relaxing trip away with Paul.  I am getting mentally prepared for another surgery.  I think this one is going to hurt a bit. I have a tumor growing in the muscle of my cheek. I am like a squirrel hiding acorns in my cheeks. That is what I feel like! It's been bothering me and I can't wait to get it out.

Hugs & Love
Michelle

Happy Holidays 2010

I am a little late on the Holiday blog wishing.
I am really happy that it's over and I now have 3 months to be tortured by the cold. We got hit with a nice winter blizzard yesterday. I don't mind the snow. It's my excuse to do absolutely nothing. I am getting very organized around the house. The perfect time to clean out closets and drawers.
I had a great Christmas and spent the day making it disappear. I was able to get all the ornaments away. I want my house back to normal.

I am still dealing with the same old issues that I have been for years now. I have my surgical date set for January 21st.  It would have been sooner, but Paul and  I had to make some difficult decisions before I went forward. I changed the date three times!

I am getting tired of these horrible tumors!

It's almost a New Year. I am looking forward to the great things that will be happening. Hoping and praying that something health wise will change.

Winter Hugs
Michelle

Fortune

"Happy news is on it's way to you"     ~Fortune cookie 2010

As luck has it, I do have to endure another surgery at some point in the next few weeks. But, things have been balancing out quite nicely in my life. I have the emotions and sadness of another fight ahead, and my dreams of becoming a mother have been visible every single day. I finally wake up with a huge smile on my face knowing every moment  we are one step closer.

Paul and I are ecstatic moving into 2011.  Our Happy news is coming!

I am still doing my energy work & meditation. It really helps in so many ways.

I have an adorable Christmas Picture this year of Bandit in her Santa hat. She struggled for a while to get it off...poor dog! I'll post it.

Peace