Spring 2009

Happy Spring!

Paul & walked up a few blocks before my appointment to the St Patrick's Day Parade & then headed back to the hospital for the rest of  my tests.  I had all my fun scans to figure out what's going on in my pretty head. Good news is that I am still STABLE!  This is wonderful & I don't have to go back for another month. I have been stable for 8 weeks now.  I am still on the Brivanib  trial. I still think I am on the placebo...but again last night I felt a little off  after I took them. Who knows what's going on!

  

Last Year

I was getting dressed and as I grabbed a shirt, a wave of complete sadness came over me. This happens to me sometimes and I always say it's a reminder of how far I have come. But, I still hate the feeling and am debating if I should throw this shirt out( it's so darn cute). When I came home from Boston I got rid off clothes that reminded me of treatment.  I kept a few things, because I love clothes and couldn't part with them. 

And,  just as I was getting upset I thought about the date. I grabbed my old  journal and read last years entry. It was just around this time.

March 14th 08

I am past the 1/2 way point. I finished 16 radiation treatments and 3 Chemotherapy treatments. I feel like shit! Headaches, belly pains, muscle soreness, back pain, Jimmy legs, burnt skin, dry eyes, nose, mouth...all the things they said would happen , did. 

It's funny that only 2% are allergic to the Taxatere Chemo drug that they gave me. I love being part of the 2%. 

I am finally catching up on my emails. All I can talk about is Boston,  treatments and the weather. Oh, and my precious dogs that I miss so much. 

Paul and I will stay in Boston this weekend. I don't feel like driving home. 

Time fly's by very quickly. But the memories are always still there. 

Browlicous

I am the proud owner of 2 beautiful eyebrows! After a year of penciling them (one) on, I finally got them tattooed! I have conquered the water rides and lost one, sweated it off in the heat & even snorkeled knowing I was coming up for air with one!  I will miss penciling on an angry eye & wiping it off to get free stuff ( YES, I am guilty of pulling out the Cancer eyebrow-less card!)

I have spent more $ on pencils, waterproof makeup & my favorite glue on real hair brows! Those are the best. It's like blonde pubic hair in the shape of a brow! Those should be banned!

Thank you to all my Eyebrow helpers.

Kerrin for helping me from the beginning, The Girls at RJ West for a year of penciling  & Daryl for Tattooing my pretty eyebrows.

Love, 

Browlicious

Results are in! I am not talking about the Oscars you crazy Brad Pitt lovers!

My scan showed that my tumors are stable! 

Sweet Brivanib Dreams

Brivanib Dreamland! This is the lovely place that I will be dreaming about tonight.

I have been so sure about this Placebo. But, tonight 1/2 and hour after taking my triplets (3 pills!) I felt off. I was light headed and Brivanib groggy! Maybe I am just tired.  My mind plays funny tricks on me.  I can't fathom these tumors getting bigger. Especially the ones on my head. I am going to be walking around town with horns soon.  Tumors popping out of my head! Forget the eyebrow! I am going to need caution tape wrapped around me at all times. I am waiting for triplet heartburn to wear off so I can go to sleep. 

Tomorrow I get scan results. I also get to talk with Dr Doom about the next step.

Vent Section (read on with Caution) 

Stupid, stupid pills! Stupid cancer and stupid doctors with stupid mri machines! ughghhg I hate it all and I hate heartburn!  ahhahahhaha 

Now I am ready for bed!

Sweet Dreams 

P.s Please send good energy to my friend Billy. Love to Cindy, Anna,  Gail, Elsa, Elizabeth, Adina & all my ROCKIN friends.  Baby Belly Rubs to Georgia & Mary Kay! Kisses to Kerryanne for letting me make corn pasta and for being apart of the band!