Monday, July 25, 2011

What a day!

A ton of thanks to Ashley, Elizabeth & The Astonishing Fartman for your generous donation to SPOHNC.

This support group has helped me in so many ways.   Being apart of this group and meeting these amazing people has completely changed my life.  Donations make it possible for caregivers, patients and family to be involved with treatments and research.  Getting updates and knowing I am not alone is a great feeling.

Update on little me...

I have been totally bummed out. Trying to snap out of it. Why am I still shocked that I have cancer??  Getting back on my feet and heading into another week of treatment.  I am having some swelling in my cheek and neck today and a horrible sore in my throat. Paul made me a lovely cup of warm honey tea. Honey is amazing!

I am doing everything I can to keep my immune system strong! And.... to fight off the issues of radiation.

To my wonderful brother....You are amazing and truly an inspiration. Your strength and determination has always given me so much will to fight and live a long life. I love you for all of your accomplishments! Congratulations! It was an amazing night! Thank you for letting me be apart of your journey.


The Astonishing FartMan said...

So sorry you're having a rough time.

I know sort of how that can be. Sometimes I don't quite realize how low I've sunk . . . emotionally and physically, because I'm so focused on just trying to get from one thing to the next thing to the next thing . . . and then it hits me: "Wow, I feel like total crap and am way deep in the dumpster."

And then I gotta try to figure out some way to pull myself out of it.

It is strange how hard it is, impossible really, for me to keep my head always wrapped around the idea that "I've got cancer." Sometimes it's really nice to forget for a while . . . but then when I remember that, "yes, I do have cancer," the memory comes as another little shock, and I have to readjust my thinking all over again.

So I try to forget "a little" sometimes, but don't want to forget completely, because I'm afraid of what it would feel like to remember after forgetting. Does that make any sense?

Well, it seems like it's a constant process of having to re-adjust, physically and emotionally. We are like emotional acrobats, flying high, spinning, whirling, changing directions all the time, and doing it all without a safety net! Actually, our friends and loved ones are the safety net that catches us when we slip.

Thank heavens for them!

Anonymous said...

I love you. Love you love you love you. I want you to be well and I hate cancer. Hate it hate it hate it. I wish words could make it go away. I lve you.

Anonymous said...

All my love and admiration.


Anonymous said...

I'm so glad to hear that you've found this wonderful support group. Don't beat yourself up for being bummed have a right to feel that way sometimes...especially after all that you are going through right now.

Hope to see you again soon.. xoxo.(((((BIG HUGS)))))