Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Valentines Day

Love, Love, Love

I can see some of my Valentine today! My poor right eye is completely swollen! When I woke up I tried to pry it open! The beuty of healing. I'm not so beautiful right now.

I slept through the night and feel good today. I am getting ready for an afternoon nap.
Then my butler Paul will make me lunch. Talk about being pampered today! Surgery worked out great with this holiday. It's like double the love.

I hope everyone enjoys Valentines Day. Remember to tell everyone around you how much you love them. Life is use today as a reminder day. It's about loving everything around you.....your dogs, cats, friends and for me ADVIl!

Have a Sweet Day,

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Free Botox...kind of! Surgery for the stars!

Surgery again....Whew!

I had another surgery yesterdy morning. Paul and I got to MSKCC at around 8 am and did the usual check in.
I was pretty calm until I got into the operating room. That's when I completely lost it. Oh the tears! I think I scared everyone. I was really contimplating about getting up and calling it a day. That's when they most likely decided to slip me the happy drug. I don't even remember feeling woozy from the pre-knock out cocktail. I just passed out.

Doc removed a tumor from my temple area. He got it all out and then some. About the size of a quarter. Unfortantly, my nerve was cut. Good news about that..Doc saved Paul thousands on Botox injections! I will now have a perma-brow! The right side of my face in wrinkle free! I am so swollen and I am bruising up pretty fast...but I may have a crowless eye! How amazing! Except I am wondering if I am becoming 1/2 angry...1/2 happy face?? Hmm I have to check that out in the mirror tomorrow.

I stayed one night in the hospital and now I am home recovering in my bedroom filled with Roses from my Valentine. Love and kissed to my wonderful husband. That man sleeps on pull out couches with metal bars digging into his back all night...for me! That's love.

The Future..... spaceships....
I am going to send out reports, scans and my history ( good luck reading that bible) to a few Doctors I have met along the way. To get a few ideas. Maybe a nice round of Chemo will help. Not really sure what anyone is going to say about me and My Sarcoma history.

Something has to change. These surgeries are brutal. I get through them like a champ...but, boy am I exhausted. One more day of percocet and then advil will be my new friend for the week.

Happy Valentines day everyone. Lot's of love and kisses to all.

A 1/2 Botox-ed lady!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

14? Is that a lucky numer...better than 13.

We'll I am pushing forward...Doc gave me the rusults after my MRI's on Tuesday. It's a Tumor!

I don't even know why I bother getting these scans done. I know what's going on even before they tell me. I can feel them (the lovely tumors) growing. 3 weeks ago I felt a difference. I had a headache and I was rubbing my temples. I felt a small bump, like a piece of rice on the right my eye. I knew..and even when Paul & everyone else said it was a pimple...I knew. I am getting better at containing my concern. I guess apart of me really hoped it was nothing.

Now what?? I will see Doc B. on Tuesday and schedule surgery. Lucky number 14!

Good neck and other parts where I have done radiation or surgery are clean. This is great news.

Yes, I am disappointed. But, I have also accepted this as part of my Life. My journey through this world of endless MSKCC slippers (Free when you get a tumor removed)!