Saturday, May 15, 2010

Billy Robsky

Hula Billy

October 4th 2008

I met Billy Robsky for the first time at Kripalu in  Massachusets attending  a Crazy Sexy Cancer weekend retreat. We sat in a big circle with a group of about 50 people who have been touched or affected by Cancer. On the second day we had an excersize that we had to partner up with someone. It was like being picked last for kick-ball!  We were the last two standing! Billy and I looked at one another and spent hours hula hooping and laughing!  That was the day that I made a wonderful friend.

Billy was my Cancer buddy. We talked about our struggles, doctors appointments and dreams.   We cried  often and we laughed a ton.  Billy taught me a lot. He  taught me to not always listen to the doctors! I have to go with my gut! His advice has saved me in so many ways. I thank him for that advice.  We both wished for things to change. Always hoping the bad times were behind us.

Billy, everytime I look at my hula hoop I will think of you. You will always have a place in my heart. You were my friend and my buddy. Thank you for listening and helping me through the hard times. Thank you for teaching me to fight  and to kick this cancer in the butt.  I have been blessed by angels to have met you. You were the kindest person I have ever met.  You will be missed.

Please say a nice prayer or thought for Billy's wife Lynn and Family.

Hugs & Hula

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother Teresa

My friend Diane gave me a book a while ago..." Don't forget to sing in the lifeboats."
It's a cute book with positive sayings.  
Two of my favorites.. First,  from Mother Teresa....  "I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much."
and " Life's a Bitch, You have to go out and Kick Ass!"

Here I am on Mothers Day. Thankful to have a wonderful Mother. Greatful to have a wonderful Mother-in-law. Yet I feel so sad today. Because,  every year I have only asked for a simple request. Cure me. Cure me , so Paul and I can move on with our lives. We want to enjoy the next step of being parents. Cure me, so I can be a Mom. Cure me, so I can give my husband the family he always wanted. Cure me, so I don't feel like such a failure. 

Every year I year will be my Mothers Day. Now I  am watching  this one pass by. 
Maybe it is true. I couldn't handle anything else in my life. Taking care of my health was number one. I know it's made me a different person. A better wife, a better friend and I will be a better Mom because of my struggles. It's taking me longer than most...but, I will get there.

To all the Mothers out in this world, Happy Mothers Day. Give them a squeeze and let them know you love them.  For every Diaper change, every tantrum, every time they make you stay up awake, waiting until 2 in the morning..past the curfew..wondering what in gods name  they are they doing!....It's  a Gift. 

One more time...Next year I will be a Mom!

Happy Mothers Day

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Good Luck!

I am nearing the end to my Portland, Vegas, California vacation.

I spent almost a week  in Portland, Oregon with Nancy, Heather & Olive...and don't forget the TWINS! I was able to join them and there friends for the baby shower. It was a great day and I got to meet so many wonderful people. Saw an amazing Ultrasound of the baby's..TWINS! We drove through the country and visited a farm with those tall sheep looking animals..nancy help me out...what are they called...Alma-laca-things??? Alpaca's!!!

Tuesday I traveled to Vegas to meet up with my great friend Chandra. We drove through Nevada and spent 5 days at Newport Coast, California. The  Coast is beautiful, Laguna Beach, Balboa it.
Slept, watched sunsets, walked the cute shops and spa-ed it up.

We just got back to Vegas and I am a little nervous. I have had this gambling itch since I landed. It subsided for a bit in Cali. That's only because I was busy trying to pick out my new home. Hint, Hint Paul!

Heading home tomorrow. Missing my Hubby and Doggies :) Can't wait to see you!

Wish me luck ! Hopefully I will come home as a winner!

Good Luck Charm!