Tuesday, December 6, 2011

HOT MESS

 Blogger Buddies!  I love all the comments and meeting new friends.
 Hello my Texan friend, Welcome. 


Tomorrow afternoon will be my first of six appointments that will continue over the next two weeks for the IGR. 


Nervous, petrified, alone....scared....just a few words. I am scared  to death. I just want a hug. 
I thought I would be happy that the day arrived. I don't even want to go. I know I will start walking through the halls and try to turn back. I am only doing this because I have pain and I want some relief.  


I am tired of pain patches, medication and heartburn! 


I taking a break after this and letting my body heal. I know I will get mixed reviews from friends and Family. I am exhausted! My bones, muscle.....every inch of me is screaming for a break. Back to back radiation is not good for my body. It can take years to recover.
I have been on a constant,"Lets kick Michelle down and beat the crap out of her pretty little body).  I am sick of everyone saying I look great!  


Look inside..  I am a HOT MESS. This is what I told Dr. Maki yesterday when my chart said diagnosis was  Sarcoma.   HOT MESS with a side of Sarcoma!


Wish me luck
Love a nice pretty girl who is a HOT MESS!

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

You can do it. Think about "Hips Don't Lie". I love you and am thinking about you and will be all day. What time is your appt?
Jess

Kathleen said...

BIG HUGS !

Sjn said...

It sounds like you're seeing the best Sarcoma Docs. But why are you at MD Anderson when you live near MSK?
I pray for your body to heal, and your mind to quickly follow. You DO need a break! Hugs to you! xo

Sjn said...

I think I read that wrong... Maki is at MSK, Benjamin is at MDA. oops.

Anonymous said...

Good Luck with your first treatment. I hope it's not as bad a what you went through last time...Big (((((((HUGS))))))
Love you,
Pam

The Astonishing FartMan said...

Thinking about you, MichelleOnLongIsland!

Thinking about what you're having to put up with leaves me speechless. All I can say is wow, ow, wow, ow.

Please don't feel like you're alone! Good souls are bridging across time and space to be with you.

Michelle said...

Great comments..I love them:)