Friday, October 23, 2009

I'm use to the surgery process...especially the mental part. I just hate going through the emotions. I especially hate when the shock becomes anger. Because, I know the next step is sadness & fear. Yesterday I was still upset. Today, I can feel it welling up in me. A huge ball of tears that will land me with puffy eyes all day. I can feel it breaking me down inside. This is the part that I hate. The worst part is that I have a whole week before surgery.
I hate this feeling that's turning my stomach. I hate surgery and I hate cancer.


5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I hate cancer too Michelle, with a passion. I hate seeing people throw their lives away with drugs or alcohol or whatever vice and then seeing you fighting so hard for it. I love you and pray for you sooooo many times a day. And carry your burden with you always. I'm sorry - I wish I could partner up with Chuck Norris and kick Cancer in it's ugly ass. ;-/

Love you,
Jess-Jess

Daria said...

Thinking of you ...

Dr. Swill said...

Hello Michelle!

I wanted to let you know about an interesting cancer blog a group of cancer patients have been working on.

A fellow tongue cancer patient was sent home to die. There was nothing more that can be done. Cancer survivors ask him life altering questions.

Please read: Dead Man Talking http://beyondtheglassdoor.blogspot.com

Peace B

"Renal Carincoid Guy" said...

Just ran across you blog Michelle and wish you the best! I top have had clinical trials and now out of country doing the pcp i loved from your site....i wish you the best and will add you to my blog roll...

steve
http://www.renalcarcinoid.com/

Dr. Swill said...

Michelle!

You are an amazing woman. You have been through so much and yet you still have a great attitude. You know this is just a bump and you'll come out of this even stronger. You are an inspiration...go kick some cancer ass!

Peace B