Here are some of the beautiful pictures that I took on my trip to Costa Rica. I am looking forward to going back to discover the rain forests and beautiful beaches. We had an amazing trip.
Today February 17th
After finding the perfect parking spot (always happens when I am running late) a mile from the train station......I caught it in time to make my Pet scan appointment. I would just like to know why I am still so nervous about needles and why I haven't gotten use to them.
This is what happened without adding drama (o.k. a little drama!). Needle went in, I squirmed, Radioactive dye (blahha) missed my vein, Arm swelled up, I cried in pain, Nurse said sorry, I turned white, Nurse got a pillow, I cried, Nurse took the needle out and tried the other arm, Nurse said sorry again, I cried, Radioactive dye (crap) went in, I felt better. Then I drank the raspberry yummy and waited my turn....same as always. I still hate needles. I know that I got the Placebo. I gained 2 pounds and have felt great. I can eat and not feel sick to my stomach.I meant to check my blood pressure today ( Elsa! I forgot to ask!). I have really low pressure, but the Brivanib makes it high. So, I figured if it was low....then I know for a fact that it's the placebo. I am a genius!
I will get my results on Friday.
I caught a ride on the MSKCC fun bus to 53rd and was able to have a lovely chat with my friend Adina. She is an amazing, beautiful young women full of life & inspiration. I sat with her while she was doing the Brivanib clinical study ( her long day) at the hospital. I felt so comfortable, like I have known her for years. I know we have been through different things (cancer crap) but, it's like we have this bond. A friendship that has already blossomed. Because, without saying a word we know how hard it's been. The tears, fears & of course the strength that has gotten us through all of it.
Adina found me from my blog! On the friday before I left for Costa Rica she came up to me in hospital. Adina & her husband Chaim told me that the only reason she was starting it was because of me. She read my blog and after I spoke about the trial she wanted to do it.
Today Adina gave me a Thank You card. I opened it on the train. While tears poured out I searched my bag to find a hanky ( yes, I have them and it's usually up my sleeve). In the card she gave me 2 lovely sayings. This one I love...
What lies behind us,
and what lies before us
are tiny matters
compared to what lies
Thank you Adina. I love your passion for life & your beautiful soul. I loved sitting with you today and will always be here if you need me. Doctors & shopping trips are a part of my friendship package.