Saturday, August 9, 2008

To Blog or Not to Blog

Should I blog? 

I have been looking at my computer wanting to write something for days now. I realized that some of my friendships are like mini-marriages. I didn't walk down the aisle with any of you..except Paul. But, you don't just get to share the birthdays, Ferragamo bags with get the bad, sad stuff too.  For better or worse, in sickness and in Health. So with that in mind here goes another bump in the road.  No, I mean it.....we have another bump. With all the support I get from my friends and Family, I needed to share every detail of my life, my journey. 

July 31st I jumped on a small plane and headed to Oklahoma to surprise and celebrate Jessica's 30th Birthday.  2 days earlier a made a decision to make a Dr's  appointment a little earlier. A check up for yet another Bump.  I felt it getting bigger and I am not sure if I wanted to really find out what it was. My dermatologist made me feel better when she said not to worry about it. But,  that's when I felt the knife go through my chest and I knew I couldn't ignore it any longer.  I knew something was wrong.

August 5th 
9 am we drove quietly into the city to visit the Doc.  A radiologist thinks it looks like a tumor.  My Doc thinks it looks like a tumor. I plopped  down  on the paper lined table and the Doc took a sample (ugh needles)  of the bump. Biopsy results should be in a few days. I looked up at him and said ," Funny the last time I was in this room you had the same puzzled look on your face". 
Friday came and went and no one called. I take it as a sign....not sure what sign that is, but  a sign. Bad news they call you a.s.a.p.  Or maybe he just didn't want to ruin my weekend. 

Good news...I am getting the sucker out.  Next friday I will go in to the OR at Sloan and Doc will remove a beautiful Tumor ( maybe a not a tumor). The surgery will be 90 minutes and a lovely gown will be given. I am just a sucker for those hospital socks. I love that they have floor grippies on both sides. 

Have a great weekend...I feel so  much better getting that off my chest.

P.s. Anyone want Hospital Socks...put your order in. Only Blue in stock.


Anonymous said...

Arnold says, "It's not a tumor"! But I am here for you, no matter what. It means so much you came to see me and the kids and my life. I loved having you here! I think about you every day and pray for you all the time. I love you. Anything I can do other than what I'm doing please let me know.
Love you,

Kathleen said...

I'm numb, speechlees; yet full of love for my one and only daughter.
I find no reasonable explanation for what you and Paul are going through.
My heart is broken, I'm fearful; yet hopeful.
You are the wind that sails our boats.
Hugs and hugs.......MOM

Anonymous said...

Hey Michelle,

I just read your blog, It's Leslie from Crazy Sexy Life....

Did your husband write the poem "In My Next Thirty Years"??? I love it...

Something tells me you are well aware of a "Happy Place" as I fully detailed mine on the other website... Ugh, Now I feel foolish...

I must say you seem to have a "Great, High Spirited" sense of humor which is "AWESOME"...

I truly enjoyed reading your blog and getting to know a small part of your life... (smile)

P.S. You look, JUST LIKE YOUR FATHER... WOW!!!!!!!!

Something tells me you have a Strong, Healthy Support system which is amazing..... Great for you... This truly helps in "Recovery" of EVERY KIND...

See You On CSL... (WINK)