With all that I have been through, I have to give myself a little credit. I never, not once lost my sense of humor. Many times it took all the energy I had to crack a smile. But, I continued to not show my sadness or burden others with my loneliness.
I had a great day yesterday. I walked my cute butt around N.y. with a million other people and smiled. I skipped into my Dr's office yapping away with the staff when I heard my name called. "Michelle..is that you? I can hear you laughing down the hall!". And with that my nerves calmed and I became aware of my recovery. Seven months ago I slouched out crying. Today I am skipping! I continued on with my day, the skipping stopped after a skip. Checking in at the desk for my MRI I met a lovely young lady. In between laughing & waiting for the test ( in my pretty blue hospital dress) she brought me a poem. She spoke about her mother in law who had a brain tumor. We talked about how we feel..... like we are alone, no one understands or can say I know how you feel..and actually know.
This is the poem she left with me. And as I sat waiting for my name to be called I read it. Reminding me of all my angels who have carried me around...even during my pizza & ice cream marathon! Sorry for the extra couple pounds.
FootPrints in the Sand
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:one belonging to him, and the other to the lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there were only one set of footprints. he also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The Lord replied: "My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
Enjoy every breathe,